losing the wait.

alright, it's time for me to be honest. I have struggled with my body image for the majority of my life; but what girl hasn't?

i've always found it hard to strike the balance between too-skinny and screw-it-i'll-eat-whatever-the-eff-Iwant. Sadly, that's how my personality is: all or nothing. I get fixated and focussed on an extreme and, being really self-motivated to prove myself right and others wrong, I go waaaay beyond the goal I set. Or I give up because of my self-doubt; I binge on Netflix and self-loathing, and top it off with a tub of Nutella. I'll admit it: it's not very healthy.

luckily, i know this part of my personality. Kinda like the whole acceptance part of the 5 Stages of Grief, except without the denial, sad, angry part before hand. I know that finding balance is a hard thing to attain, and it's also one that can be hard to maintain once you do stumble upon it. But I'm reworking my thinking.

i'm losing the wait.

I'm dropping the inner 'wait' monologue. I'm abandoning my self doubt. I'm finished battling the 'wait, can I do this?'. I'm finished asking myself 'wait, is this worth it?' I'm finished with, 'wait, am I even worth it?.'  I'm done. I'm done. I'm done.

i'm losing the wait.

so this is me walking away. I'm turning my back on doubting who I am, what I'm capable of, and where I'm going in life. I'm losing the wait. The world, but more importantly the internet (we're being honest here, right?), is a huge place that is filled with the inspiration and the support we all need to lose our own wait. Sure, for me this is coming from a place of physical health but it can be mental too. How you mentally see yourself losing your own wait is just as important as physically abandoning it.

i'm committing myself to a new journey; a journey where, day by day and step by step, I'll lose my wait and gain good, wholesome health, physically and mentally. It will be hard some days, and will take plenty of time. All-in-all, though, it'll be worth the wait.

spread the vibes, butterflies.

xo,

adrienne.

beauty in review: Dove Dry Spray Deodorant

hi all! I feel obliged to let you in on a little beauty obsession of mine: I love, adore aerosol deodorants. I don't know what it is about them, but I've always had a soft spot in my heart (and pits) for them.

more honesty: I've used the same spray for the last 8 years. It's always worked so well, I couldn't give it up. What can I say? I'm definitely a creature of habit. I usually stick to the same products, but luckily I'm also not afraid to try anything once. 

which brings us to a new favorite product of mine: Dove's Dry Spray Deodorant.

Here are the specs:

-it's a spray. Press down the top button, 6 inches(ish) from your pits and mist away.

-but it's a dry spray. Most spray deodorants go on wet, and then you're awkwardly waiting in your room naked, with arms above your head for the 30 seconds it takes for your underarms to dry. Supposedly, you don't have to do it with Dove's spray. I've never heard of such a thing. Hey, I don't know how they do it (gypsy magic, probably) but I'm down to give it a try. 

-it protects for 48 hours. It says it's supposed to keep you dry and smelling fresh for 48 hours. Which is a pretty long time, no?

-it comes in 6 different scents/formulas. What I love about Dove products is that they offer so many different scents, and types of deodorants based on your preferences and needs. 

ok, it sounds pretty solid, right? So how did it hold up?

-it's definitely a dry spray, but more of a pilly-dry. The spray goes on dry, that part is true. But it pills (like a lived-in sweater would) once you put your arms down. Maybe I was just putting on too much; but I feel like if I put on any less, it wouldn't be enough.

-it (might) protect for 48 hours. The deodorant held up really well throughout an entire work day, and a 4.5 mile run. It definitely doesn't keep you bone dry like a prescription-strength (duh) but I think it kept me dryer than any other Dove products. With the way I sweat, I don't think it would hold up for a full 48 hours... But then again, I probably wouldn't go more than 24 hours without reapplying. 

-it smells pretty damn good. I tried the "nourished beauty" and it smelled powdery fresh, but not like baby powder. Like how you'd expect a Swedish, blonde haired super model would smell like. So... really good.

-it left me fairly well moisturized. Most spray deodorants I've come across dry out my skin if I don't swap them out for a moisture bar every few days. I've been using this for 3 weeks, and I haven't had any dry/itchy skin since. 

overall, I'd definitely have to recommend Dove's Dry Spray Deodorant. It kept me dry, smelling great, and still well moisturized. I'd call that a win-win-win. So congrats Dove! You have a new convert.

has anyone else tried it? How'd it hold up for you?

stay dry and stay fresh, lovelies.

xo,

adrienne.